“And the Lord turned and looked at Peter. Then Peter remembered the word of the Lord, how He had said to him, ‘Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times.’ So Peter went out and wept bitterly.” -Luke 22:61-62
After denying Jesus three times, Peter could have given up. He could have said, “It’s not even worth getting up in the morning, because tomorrow I will fail again… I’m too far gone.” But he didn’t. And as such, God did indeed build a church through him.
That is our weakness – that we walk away from God. Because it’s never God that walks away. Recently, someone shared this metaphor with me:
A man and a woman sat at opposite ends of one of those vintage cars where the front seat is one piece (without a center console). When the wife complained about the distance between them, the husband’s answer was simple: “Honey, I never moved, I’ve been driving the entire time.” They started side by side, but as life passed by, the distance between them grew until they were on opposite sides.
The moral of the story is this: we are the ones who choose to create distance between ourselves and God. Peter did it – very publicly and multiple times. He literally denied knowing Christ. The same Christ who called Peter to be His disciple and promised to make him the cornerstone of the church of Christ. If that was me, I don’t know if I would have the guts to show my face around anything to do with Christ again.
Maybe this is where Peter first truly experienced the depth and power of our God’s grace and great love. Because instead of letting that distance grow, He came back to the foot of that cross. He went back out there and made happen what he was called to do.
So, no. You are never too far gone. And if you doubt me, look at Peter. If God could build a church on a “traitor” like that, then surely He can work with whatever you think is separating you from Him. But, girl, you have to take that first step. Make your way back to your beloved. He’s there. He always has been.