Have you ever felt unattractive to the point of feeling invisible?
I grew up watching romantic movies and my favorite was Dirty Dancing. Jennifer Grey plays an ugly duckling who magically transforms into a dancing swan with the help and love of Patrick Swayze’s character. *Sigh* I wanted that to be me. Reading probably hundreds of romance novels only reinforced that it was the love of a man that would transform me from being plain to pretty, invisible to having worth.
Reading Leah’s story shows that this kind of thinking hasn’t changed much and neither has the desire of feeling wanted. Leah, Laban’s eldest daughter, was described as having weak eyes while her younger sister, Rachel, was incredibly beautiful. For Jacob, it was lust at first sight and he worked for Laban seven years to make her his wife. But on the day of the wedding, Jacob was deceived and instead of marrying Rachel, he married Leah instead.
Seeing that Leah was invisible to Jacob and unloved, the Lord gave her children. Each child was named with the desire of her heart to be loved, to be heard, and to be attached. Yet it wasn’t until she bears Judah that there’s a change in her heart. Instead of desperately desiring her husband’s attention, a transformation takes place that she had never experienced before.
God has given us all a deep yearning to be loved. Many times, like Leah, we must go through a process of letting go of a deeply rooted belief that a man needs to provide our value or worth. It is only God who can do that and when we allow Him to, we can also say like Leah, “Now I will praise the Lord.”